Thursday, August 31, 2006
was deciding whether to pon today anot
so yq smsed me in the morning and i told him i go to sch not for celebration but to play soccer.. haha
then rained so heavily.. dampened my mood.
anyway i went partly also becos i appreciate wat the teachers had done for us. the theme is rather interesting " superheroes" but just that it's the same as the zhenghua sch camp. so i believe it's the same gp of ppl organising.
celebration ended early and i decided again whether to cross over to visit my sec sch. so in the end i went.
and i told yq that everytime i step inside this sch i have a very weird feeling. the feeling of not working hard enough. the feeling of underperforming. the feeling of regrets. the feeling of letting my parents down. well... perhaps i am the onli 1 feeling this way. and perhaps i have a very high self-esteem.
so i went back and managed to see 2 teachers. i didnt regret making the trip down there, since it's so near and since it's nice having a casual chat with teachers. and since it's probably the last time i will visit them. it's like how u stop visiting yr pri. sch when u reach jc.
jc life hasnt been fulfiling for me. time just flies before i know it. everything seems like yesterday.
i realised i've nv changed. personality cant be changed yeah? still as slack. still gg late for sch often. still nv put in effot for my studies. it's quite scary to know that personality dun change. haha... like i get very easily distracted. i cant stop complaining about my own sch. i keep saying about how depressed and sad when i got into this sch. i mean these things realli haunt me lah...i just cant put them down. it's time to forget them and move on.
so i spoke to my form teacher also my chinese teacher about my studies, results. and realised how hopeless i am. and everyyear i go back i will tell her about how lousy my O level results was and tt was how i landed elsewhere. and i hate telling ppl about my results. about how i only managed to pass 1 sub and failed the rest. about how my results deproved so much since last year
when ppl started studying and putting in consistent effort so long time ago. when ppl are 80% ready for prelims while i am still only 20% ready. when ppl had written so many econs essay and i wrote less than 10. when ppl have very good foundation and mine is so weak. isnt it scary?
i hate it when ppl say they got good results becos of luck. i hate it when ppl lie that they slack alot. i hate it when ppl say they havent do their prelim papers and stuff when i didnt even complete my tutorials. my situation is 100 times worse than most ppl okay. so stop compaining infront of me. or perhaps u all want to let me know how slow i am.
so i managed to see mrs chua, i must say she's the best chemistry teacher i have seen. and she expects discipline from her students. and those late comers had to hop to their seats. and we had to sprint to her lessons, realli sprinting.. haha.
i had a long chat with her, i have no idea how long the chat lasted. i dunno whether she remembers my name but at least she remembers wat class i was from. i felt quite paiseh chatting with her for so long cos a gp of ppl crowded around me and her waiting to wish her happi teachers' day. so as usual i told her about my situation now. how bad and failure a student i am. how bad my results are. arrgh.. well, she taught me lots of valuable things which i shall not elaborate. but i would like to express my gratitudes to teachers who lend a listening ear to me as well as advices to me. i think hers are the best and i shall follow her advice. time is running short esp for me. when the whole sch pop is so prepared for prelims ( at least much more than me), there is a person struggling. and this person hopes to settle down and concentrate on this studies. and this person hopes he will not get distracted by anything from now onwards and move on.
happy teachers day!
(just some of my true feelings)
3:00 pm
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i hope i stop complaining.
lol
i am realli disgusted with the paper.
or perhaps myself..
i seriously dunno how to answer the questions lah.. lol
the passages sux lah... wat kind of weird topic...the qns sux even more lah..
the investment qn realli weird.. haha... i wonder how ppl phrase it...
the paper killed me again. i cant pass.
waist-hip ratio 0.6-0.8... haha... i think the passage realli funni.
i hope i go to sch tmr.
3:17 pm
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
fact is i am not coping with studies at all.
i dunno. seems like every1 have time to do their work and i just enter tutorial classes with undone work. as usual. but i am getting worried.
was too tired today that i went back home at 2.50 to sleep when lessons supposed to end at 6.
realli glad that teachers showed concerned to me. hehe. at least i know i am not alone. weeeee~!
*thanks mrs lim for reminding me that i am not stupid .. haha
*thanks mrs ong for showing concern when i told her i was realli demoralised.
and mr lim.
mr lim: y are u so tired
me: not enough sleep
mr lim: i nv see u copying. have u done yr paper3?
me: err... not realli
mr lim: did u study hard?
me: i nv study for the 1st half of this year
mr lim: did u study hard last year?
me: not realli
mr lim: i know. (how u know?)
mr lim: dun worry, u can study more efficiently than the rest.
me: why?
mr lim: because u study 2 years work in 2 months (woah, i shall take it as a compliment)
somehow he told me i can get my A... hah...
just wanna thank them for giving me assurance.
the rest is up to me.
1:19 am
Saturday, August 19, 2006
8:23 pm
Friday, August 18, 2006
cant seem to solve any maths.. wth...wth...wth...... seriously cant do maths... i can do maths so easily last year.. wat's wrong =( i am worried..
seeing principal later. i feel so shameful.. seriously. sad. =(
my friend told me to do maths to boost confidence yet i felt so depressed. wth.
arrghh... wat's wrong?!?!
i am not dumb. i am not dumb! i am just a little stupid and very lazy.
& i cant afford to get bad results again. i dun want history to repeat !
4:24 am
Sunday, August 13, 2006
i hate myself!
i slacked too much. for the past year.
regrets
those in my econs class will know i nv do my econs stuff at all. even mcqs. i didnt even finish reading all my notes. i am serious. so screwed now lah...
slacked so much tt even those subs i were good at screwed up.
wish me luck.
i wanna do well.
10:22 pm
Saturday, August 12, 2006
the last few months of jc life. i know i can do it!
2:51 pm
Thursday, August 10, 2006
wah. i nv do my whole g field tutotial. which i am supposed to do a year ago.. wahah.. this is getting exciting. so much undone tutorials ..weee~!
10:25 pm
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
wahaha... today was late for sch.. didnt manage to join my class for assembly. was standing at the slope then decided to walk off to toliet with ken. then walked to canteen slack around and have a drink. haha.
luckily saw ong so she could confirm my attendance. wasnt with my class for the whole celebration. was standing at the centre of grand stand. then my friends decided to take bench from canteen to sit. in the end they took a table.. which is better cos higher. waha.. then played soccer. =S
sianz .... bb... shall not emphasise how screwed my studies is.. hais
6:23 pm
gp 5 to see principal.. sianz.. i rather see the VP lah.. gp 6 onwards see vp.. so suay.. hais.. i think i will just attitude her.. lol.
so screwed lah.. sob sob**
2:13 am
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
thanks for all the well wishes.
be it thru' smses or saying "happi bday" to me or even putting a letter in my letter box. haha
i had a bday wish todae. i wanted bala to punch me. but he nv. lol.
then during pe the retarded teacher made sam pump 50 times..
after maths was walking into LT5. then this gp of friends of mine coordinated very well. the 1st thing they saw me was to grab me. took away my hp. took away my wallet. dragged me to outside the classroom and wanted to kill me. luckily i was strong enough to counter. lol. i am safe =D
they took my hp and looked at a photo which i am not sure which 1. in the end i deleted all the photos to play safe. lol
hmmm.. thanks yinghui for giving me $20 kino voucher... and priscilla who gave me an egg tart..
and thanks to all the touch ruggers who wished me happi bday when i was leaving sch. lolz..
thanks every1!
9:41 pm
Thursday, August 31, 2006
was deciding whether to pon today anot
so yq smsed me in the morning and i told him i go to sch not for celebration but to play soccer.. haha
then rained so heavily.. dampened my mood.
anyway i went partly also becos i appreciate wat the teachers had done for us. the theme is rather interesting " superheroes" but just that it's the same as the zhenghua sch camp. so i believe it's the same gp of ppl organising.
celebration ended early and i decided again whether to cross over to visit my sec sch. so in the end i went.
and i told yq that everytime i step inside this sch i have a very weird feeling. the feeling of not working hard enough. the feeling of underperforming. the feeling of regrets. the feeling of letting my parents down. well... perhaps i am the onli 1 feeling this way. and perhaps i have a very high self-esteem.
so i went back and managed to see 2 teachers. i didnt regret making the trip down there, since it's so near and since it's nice having a casual chat with teachers. and since it's probably the last time i will visit them. it's like how u stop visiting yr pri. sch when u reach jc.
jc life hasnt been fulfiling for me. time just flies before i know it. everything seems like yesterday.
i realised i've nv changed. personality cant be changed yeah? still as slack. still gg late for sch often. still nv put in effot for my studies. it's quite scary to know that personality dun change. haha... like i get very easily distracted. i cant stop complaining about my own sch. i keep saying about how depressed and sad when i got into this sch. i mean these things realli haunt me lah...i just cant put them down. it's time to forget them and move on.
so i spoke to my form teacher also my chinese teacher about my studies, results. and realised how hopeless i am. and everyyear i go back i will tell her about how lousy my O level results was and tt was how i landed elsewhere. and i hate telling ppl about my results. about how i only managed to pass 1 sub and failed the rest. about how my results deproved so much since last year
when ppl started studying and putting in consistent effort so long time ago. when ppl are 80% ready for prelims while i am still only 20% ready. when ppl had written so many econs essay and i wrote less than 10. when ppl have very good foundation and mine is so weak. isnt it scary?
i hate it when ppl say they got good results becos of luck. i hate it when ppl lie that they slack alot. i hate it when ppl say they havent do their prelim papers and stuff when i didnt even complete my tutorials. my situation is 100 times worse than most ppl okay. so stop compaining infront of me. or perhaps u all want to let me know how slow i am.
so i managed to see mrs chua, i must say she's the best chemistry teacher i have seen. and she expects discipline from her students. and those late comers had to hop to their seats. and we had to sprint to her lessons, realli sprinting.. haha.
i had a long chat with her, i have no idea how long the chat lasted. i dunno whether she remembers my name but at least she remembers wat class i was from. i felt quite paiseh chatting with her for so long cos a gp of ppl crowded around me and her waiting to wish her happi teachers' day. so as usual i told her about my situation now. how bad and failure a student i am. how bad my results are. arrgh.. well, she taught me lots of valuable things which i shall not elaborate. but i would like to express my gratitudes to teachers who lend a listening ear to me as well as advices to me. i think hers are the best and i shall follow her advice. time is running short esp for me. when the whole sch pop is so prepared for prelims ( at least much more than me), there is a person struggling. and this person hopes to settle down and concentrate on this studies. and this person hopes he will not get distracted by anything from now onwards and move on.
happy teachers day!
(just some of my true feelings)
3:00 pm
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i hope i stop complaining.
lol
i am realli disgusted with the paper.
or perhaps myself..
i seriously dunno how to answer the questions lah.. lol
the passages sux lah... wat kind of weird topic...the qns sux even more lah..
the investment qn realli weird.. haha... i wonder how ppl phrase it...
the paper killed me again. i cant pass.
waist-hip ratio 0.6-0.8... haha... i think the passage realli funni.
i hope i go to sch tmr.
3:17 pm
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
fact is i am not coping with studies at all.
i dunno. seems like every1 have time to do their work and i just enter tutorial classes with undone work. as usual. but i am getting worried.
was too tired today that i went back home at 2.50 to sleep when lessons supposed to end at 6.
realli glad that teachers showed concerned to me. hehe. at least i know i am not alone. weeeee~!
*thanks mrs lim for reminding me that i am not stupid .. haha
*thanks mrs ong for showing concern when i told her i was realli demoralised.
and mr lim.
mr lim: y are u so tired
me: not enough sleep
mr lim: i nv see u copying. have u done yr paper3?
me: err... not realli
mr lim: did u study hard?
me: i nv study for the 1st half of this year
mr lim: did u study hard last year?
me: not realli
mr lim: i know. (how u know?)
mr lim: dun worry, u can study more efficiently than the rest.
me: why?
mr lim: because u study 2 years work in 2 months (woah, i shall take it as a compliment)
somehow he told me i can get my A... hah...
just wanna thank them for giving me assurance.
the rest is up to me.
1:19 am
Saturday, August 19, 2006
8:23 pm
Friday, August 18, 2006
cant seem to solve any maths.. wth...wth...wth...... seriously cant do maths... i can do maths so easily last year.. wat's wrong =( i am worried..
seeing principal later. i feel so shameful.. seriously. sad. =(
my friend told me to do maths to boost confidence yet i felt so depressed. wth.
arrghh... wat's wrong?!?!
i am not dumb. i am not dumb! i am just a little stupid and very lazy.
& i cant afford to get bad results again. i dun want history to repeat !
4:24 am
Sunday, August 13, 2006
i hate myself!
i slacked too much. for the past year.
regrets
those in my econs class will know i nv do my econs stuff at all. even mcqs. i didnt even finish reading all my notes. i am serious. so screwed now lah...
slacked so much tt even those subs i were good at screwed up.
wish me luck.
i wanna do well.
10:22 pm
Saturday, August 12, 2006
the last few months of jc life. i know i can do it!
2:51 pm
Thursday, August 10, 2006
wah. i nv do my whole g field tutotial. which i am supposed to do a year ago.. wahah.. this is getting exciting. so much undone tutorials ..weee~!
10:25 pm
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
wahaha... today was late for sch.. didnt manage to join my class for assembly. was standing at the slope then decided to walk off to toliet with ken. then walked to canteen slack around and have a drink. haha.
luckily saw ong so she could confirm my attendance. wasnt with my class for the whole celebration. was standing at the centre of grand stand. then my friends decided to take bench from canteen to sit. in the end they took a table.. which is better cos higher. waha.. then played soccer. =S
sianz .... bb... shall not emphasise how screwed my studies is.. hais
6:23 pm
gp 5 to see principal.. sianz.. i rather see the VP lah.. gp 6 onwards see vp.. so suay.. hais.. i think i will just attitude her.. lol.
so screwed lah.. sob sob**
2:13 am
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
thanks for all the well wishes.
be it thru' smses or saying "happi bday" to me or even putting a letter in my letter box. haha
i had a bday wish todae. i wanted bala to punch me. but he nv. lol.
then during pe the retarded teacher made sam pump 50 times..
after maths was walking into LT5. then this gp of friends of mine coordinated very well. the 1st thing they saw me was to grab me. took away my hp. took away my wallet. dragged me to outside the classroom and wanted to kill me. luckily i was strong enough to counter. lol. i am safe =D
they took my hp and looked at a photo which i am not sure which 1. in the end i deleted all the photos to play safe. lol
hmmm.. thanks yinghui for giving me $20 kino voucher... and priscilla who gave me an egg tart..
and thanks to all the touch ruggers who wished me happi bday when i was leaving sch. lolz..
thanks every1!
9:41 pm